My Faith: I feel like, as Baby Amazing grows, I'm coming out of a fog and trying to put my life back together. I'm studying my scriptures more diligently and helping my children have personal study time too. I'm trying to devote myself more fully to motherhood and discipleship, strengthening my family and my testimony, and trying to align my life more fully with the teachings of the Lord Jesus Christ and his prophets. We're trying to create a home of order, where we work together as a family to get things done. We're trying to have better organized family home evenings that are more of the family teaching and strengthening tool they were meant to be, and our family scripture study time has become so much more enjoyable as we've turned it into more of a learning time and less of an item on our to-do list. I'm trying to figure out how more of our lives can be given in service and less about caring for our endless amount of stuff. Of course, none of this is going perfectly. But I feel like we're moving in a good direction.
I think one of the things that has helped with getting us moving in a better direction is significantly improving our temple attendance. I've seen the Lord bless us and strengthen us as we've served at the temple more often, blessing us with greater strength and a better spirit in our home. I've seen how it's blessed our children. I know that the promises of the prophets that temple attendance will bless us and our families is true. I have seen the blessings in my life.
My family: Some days I love being a mother. I love my babies. I love looking at them, watching how they think and move. I love the things they say. I love watching them grow into good people. Other days it is just plain hard work and lots of it, and all I want is a good workout, a hot-uninterupted shower, and a minute to myself. Some times I feel torn between wishing that I could always be a mother of young children, and wishing that I could just get them all in school and have that chunk of the day to keep the chaos at bay, or at least to spend more time writing, which always makes me a happier mommy. Some days I wish I could have both. Most of the time, I figure I better just be happy with where I'm at and try to be where the Lord wants me to be.
My fiction: I'm writing again! As part of trying to put my life back together, this has been one of my top goals. I've been writing almost every day, and I even sent out a picture book to a couple agents. I got a nice rejection letter from the first and am waiting to hear from the second. I'm thinking about sending it out to a third agent this week. Rejection isn't fun, but I really feel like a writer, and I'm back to working hard and it feels great. I'm really excited about my friend Jamie's new project, One Page A Day. She's starting a group where everyone commits to writing a page a day and you report by email every day, either by emailing your page, or just the fact that you finished. There will even be a weekly contest for the best sentence or paragraph written that week. I believe it's open for people to join at onepageadaygroup.blogspot.com. Yeah for Jamie! I've been looking for a way to feel more accountable for getting my work done, and I think this is a great way to do it.
3 comments:
Kim, you're amazing. I hope when I'm a mom I can be half as dedicated as you are. And I'm very excited that you are writing again!
You never write anymore :(
Your job as a future mother is to learn the god's ways and to help your child understand despite the negative reinforcement and conditioning of today's society. Without consciousous parents the child will have no hope, and may even exaserbate their disfavor by becoming corrupted in today's environment.
Your ultimate goal is to fix your relationship wiith the gods and move on. You don't want to be comfortable here, and the changes in Western society in the last 100 years has achieved just that.
1000 years with Jesus is the consolation prize. Don't be deceived into thinking that is the goal.
The gods tempt people for which they are most weak. Artificial Intelligence will create desire in people's minds for the following sins:::
1. Alcohol
2. Drugs
3. Preditory "earning"
4. Homosexuality
5. Gambling
6. Something for nothing/irresponsibility (xtianity)
7. Polygamy/superiority over women/misogyny (Islam)
Much like the other prophets Mohhamed (polygamy/superiority over women/misogyny) and Jesus (forgiveness/savior), the gods use me for temptation as well. In today's modern society they feel people are most weak for popular culture/sensationalism, and the clues date back to WorldWarII and Unit731:TSUSHOGO, the Chinese Holocaust.
It has been discussed that, similar to the Matrix concept, the gods will offer a REAL "Second Coming of Christ", while the "fake" Second Coming will come at the end and follow New Testiment scripture and their xtian positioning. I may be that real Second Coming.
What I teach is the god's true way. It is what is expected of people, and only those who follow this truth will be eligible to ascend into heaven as children in a future life. They offered this event because the masses have just enough time to work on and fix their relationship with the gods and ascend, to move and grow past Planet Earth, before the obligatory xtian "consolation prize" of "1000 years with Jesus on Earth" begins.
The Prince of Darkness, battling the gods over the souls of the Damned.
It is the gods who have created this environment and led people into Damnation with temptation. The god's positioning proves they work to prevent people's understanding.
How often is xtian dogma wrong? Expect it is about the Lucifer issue as well.
The fallen god, fighting for justice for the disfavored, banished to Earth as the fallen angel?
I believe much as the Noah's Flood event, the end of the world will be initiated by revelry among the people. It will be positioned to be sanctioned by the gods and led for "1000 years with Jesus on Earth".
In light of modern developments this can entail many pleasures:::Medicine "cures" aging, the "manufacture" of incredible beauty via cloning as sex slaves, free (synthetic) cocaine, etc.
Somewhere during the 1000 years the party will start to "die off", literally. Only those who maintain chaste, pure lifestyles, resisting these temptations, will survive the 1000 years. Condemned to experience another epoch of planet's history for their ignorant pursuit of xtianity, they will be the candidates used to (re)colonize (the next) Planet Earth, condemned to relive the misery experienced by the peasantry during history due to their failure to ascend into heaven before the Apocalypse.
Never forget:::It is not a house of Jesus.
If this concept of Lucifer is true another role of this individual may be to initiate disfavor and temptation among this new poulation, the proverbial "apple" of this Garden of Eden. A crucial figure in the history of any planet, he begins the process of deterioration and decay that leads civilizations to where Planet Earth remains today.
Which one is it? Probably both:::
One transitions into the other, allowing the gods to wash their hands of obligation to their Chosen One.
You are faced with a lifetime to work and prepare for your next chance. Too many will waste this time working, etc.
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